For many reasons, I’ve been putting off writing this post. Last week’s training gave me an unpleasant reality check. It seems I’m not progressing as well ad I’d hoped and the doubts as to whether I can actually manage to run a sub-2:05 HM have set in.
Last Thursday’s session was fun though. After a hectic day at work, I really didn’t want to run but my star of a husband said he’d come out with me. Normally I’d be eating his dust on runs but he’s coming back from injury so was content with my snail-like pace. And I had a fartlek session scheduled. Never having done one before, I duly consulted Runner’s World on the subject and running between lampposts seemed easy enough. We took it in turns to call the next landmark and I sprinted and tried to win whilst he did a little funny shuffle and got there lots quicker. We only managed 3.5 miles but it was surprisingly knackering.
Next up was a 10k race on Wimbledon Common on Saturday. Now, I know I wasn’t supposed to drink the night before but it was a good friend’s bday, we were in an awesome restaurant and I have no willpower. I did however, manage to be home by midnight and woke feeling surprisingly sprightly. Arriving at the Harlequin’s rugby training ground in Wimbledon, I quickly saw that this was a race aimed more at the honed athletic types than my bumbling running style. And the race wasn’t around Wimbledon Common but laps around the sports fields with a woodland section thrown in. But everyone seemed nice so I was determined to enjoy it. The race started and we ran once round the fields, with me managing to keep my pace nicely on target (9:47) for the first mile. As we took the final straight and headed off into the woods, it all went a bit Pete Tong. Turns out I’d started too fast and as the vague uphill turned into a long climb on uneven woodland ground with tree roots, I started to panic. This was the hardest race I’d ever done and there was no way I could finish it. I was too hungover, unfit and was going to pass out. It’s amazing the tricks your mind and body can play on you. I honestly thought there was no way I could do this. So a combination of lactic acid, some seriously negative thoughts and the fact that I was back of the pack made me very nearly just drop out. I didn’t know these people. Who cares what they think if I just stop and walk off to my car.
But that would be missing the point. And so after a little bit of walking and feeling like a fool, I turned the race into a jog up to the top of the hill. Stumbling over a tree root as I turned to go back down was the turning point. The down slope helped, as did the music I plugged in, as did overtaking a few people. And then suddenly I started to enjoy the race. I cruised back down to the bottom and was ready for the next lap, knowing this time, where to conserve energy and where to stretch out. The lap round the field was a strong point as I managed to overtake even more people. The second time up the hill made me realise that, despite appearances, it was actually a horribly long lung-busting slope rather than my failings as a runner. My target time was 59 minutes and my time ended up being 1:02 which is still slow for my 10K PB but I guess to be expected given the terrain, fitness levels and morning-after-feeling.
So all, in all, last week’s training made me question whether I’m setting myself up to fail. Whether trying to fit all this training in is just a recipe for guilt-inducing missed sessions. It’s almost winter. Do I really want to spend evenings and mornings pounding the streets in search of running Nirvana?